RIP Charlie: 12/9/15 – 2/19/16



Friends and family:  We have the most horrible news possible to share.  Charlie suffered a horrible event this morning and despite heroic efforts by EMT, firefighters, police officers and hospital staff, he was not able to be saved.  Charlie Robert Mazza died at about 8:40am.

Kristen and I are devastated, to say the least.  It’s simply unfathomable that I could be holding my boy at 7:30am, and he’d not be breathing at 7:40am.

We don’t know yet what caused this horrible event, but he developed a bloody nose shortly after 7:30.  Grandpa Bob was holding him and then gave him to our nanny, Stevie, who noticed that he had a small dab of blood in his nose.  Grandma Selena ran him up to Kristen, who came down the stairs screaming to me for help.  I was already in my home office doing some work.

I ran out to see Charlie’s bloody nose and he was looking a little pale.  I called our pediatrician, Dr. Nash, but almost immediately I decided he wasn’t breathing and needed CPR.  Kristen called 911 and I laid Charlie down to start CPR.  I had Dr. Nash on the phone while I was doing this and he was giving me pointers.  I checked for choking hazards, tried rubbing his back vigorously and just did CPR.

The EMT crew was on-site within 7 or 8 minutes and took over CPR.  They hooked up monitors and we could see there was no breathing or heart activity.  They kept going, trying to install various medicine.  Then they decided it was time to move him to the ambulance and to race him to San Ramon Medical Center.

Kristen and I raced out the door immediately and got ahead of the ambulance, but then it raced past us.  We were just a couple minutes behind them arriving at the ER and we walked into a full triage attempt.

Doctors and nurses were working hard trying to stabilize him and they continued CPR.  They continued until approximately 8:40am, and the two doctors on-site looked at each other and called off other efforts.

I was strong until that point, but Kristen and were in complete anguish.  They let us hold our baby boy for about 20 minutes.

Doctors will do an autopsy to try and determine what happened.  This may take a few days to complete, and it may be weeks or months before results come in.

We have Kristen’s mom, dad, step parents and sister on-site tonight. My family is coming in beginning Sunday.  I don’t know if we’ll have a service other than something with our family.

To Charlie:  We love you buddy, and though you won’t physically be here, you’ll be with us forever.  We cherish the short time you were with us, and we were with you.  Your mom and dad love you forever and we’ll see you someday.

Here are some of our favorite pictures of Charlie.


Charlie takes a full bottle
Grandma Karen holds Charlie while Grandpa Rick looks on.
Our first family portrait.


12 thoughts on “RIP Charlie: 12/9/15 – 2/19/16

  1. Todd, I am so sorry for this loss. God has chosen him to be an angel and he will forever watch over your family. I know Florida is a long way away…but if we can ever do anything to help, we will be there for you. Much love and many prayers for your family.


  2. Todd, please let us know what we can do from the East Coast. Can we make a donation in Charlie’s name to the hospital? Some specific organization that you and Kristen have found invaluable? These Big 8 ladies need to do something useful, even if it’s donate $ to a wonderful cause on Charlie’s behalf.


  3. Todd, there are no words. I will hold you and your family in my heart, and pray you receive the strength to get through the days ahead. Carla is right… Please let us know if we can do anything for you in Charlie’s name and honor.


  4. My heart is heavy, I am so sorry for your loss. Charlie will always watch over his brothers in protection. Let me know if there is anything we can do to help. My thoughts are with you all. Xo


  5. Dear Todd, You, Kristen, sweet Charlie, Sammy, & Jacob (& your families) are all in our hearts/thoughts/ prayers, and will continue to be. When Paul sent me the text yesterday morning, my heart just dropped to the floor.. No words to express my sorrow.. I’ll be praying for you all to have moments of comfort and peace as you navigate through this. Sending so much love 💙💙💙💙💖
    Rachel & Paul Kahalewai


  6. I do not know your family, but your posting was on my cousin Michael Cave’s fb page. I felt your hurt and pain through your story and it is deep. The only words I can say is that my husband and I are praying for you, your wife and Charlie’s siblings. Cherish your sweet memories your your adorable baby boy


  7. Todd and Kristen- With the deepest sorrow I read your account of the events today. My thoughts are with you and your family. I will continue to send my prayers to all of you during this time. Love, Tiina


  8. I am so sorry for your loss, Todd. Please know that you and Kristen and the boys are in my thoughts. Those little boys are so precious. Thinking of you and sending you hugs from afar. Love, Heather


  9. Todd & Kristen:

    I am so sorry for the delay in sending you my condolences, but I have been speechless and so saddened by your loss. It hit me really hard as many I am sure, and I just want you to know how much my heart goes out to you. I know that you have a very special angel watching over all of you. I have so much respect for your grace and love during this time. To Samuel and Jacob the best of times to come and a blessed life together as a very special family.

    With Love, Rebecca


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